Alright, so I think it has been longer than a week since my last entry. It's interesting how I avoid doing things when I "have to" do them...and here I am trying to fill you in on all that has happened since then. Our first week was filled with meetings, BBQ's, more meetings, figuring out what projects we would be responsible for, getting to know each of the sixteen other interns, more BBQ's, getting to know the staff, a full day of rock climbing at Smith Rock (followed by another BBQ), and ended with church on Sunday...guess what was after church...you got it...a BBQ. Needless to say, come Sunday afternoon I was exhausted, but still so thrilled to be in lovely Bend.
I am realizing so much about my faith and relationship with my God (unfortunately more often my lack of a genuine one.) I have come to the conclusion that I am here to listen with an open heart and a quiet mind, to learn to know my Savior and know His Word, and to grow by giving all of it up...and I mean all of it. I have lived in the same 30 mile radius my entire life. I have known nothing other than the Beach Cities of Orange County. In the two weeks I have been here, I have listened, learned and grown more than I could have ever hope for or imagined. I am not sad to be here away from my friends and my family and what is familiar to me. I am grateful that I am being used and shaped into who the Lord will have me be.
I am being challenged in ways I didn't think I needed to be. I have treated what I claim to be the most important part of my life as just another item to be checked off of my TO DO list. My world is being rocked to the core here, and for that I am thankful. God is holding up a mirror to the cookie cutter/bubble of a life I have lived, and is showing me that there is so much more that He has to offer me. He requires so much more than what I have been giving Him. How can I deny Him my entire life? How can I justify my selfishness? My lips should never cease to praise Him. My soul should always thirst to know Him.
May my lips and my soul and my life and all of who I am thirst for You...